Some days are harder than others, these days I question what I’m  doing wrong. It’s hard to be me always looked at as the “little sister” I”m grown! but no one seems to acknowledge my legal age, just my body’s age you know young in the face. It’s hard this whole single thing, going out to keep a smile on my face. doing things for me. Money spent for a moment of emotional joy. Then it wears off once I finish the drink, or the coffee, or the cake, whatever i try to use to replace the sting. Like … Continue reading same old story

I was just sitting here crying like God this is so painful. I’ve made cool guy friends who later say oh your such a nice girl but I just don’t see you that way. and I wonder when will it me Nicole’s turn. I cry from pain deep pain, deep emptiness, filled with the same sin a stronghold that always finds its way back in instant satisfaction flesh is oh so pleased. But then reality. you were again weak submitting to your own selfish desire. It never is enough. I listened to Take the Pain Away (Jnewry) and cried. cause … Continue reading He Love’s Me, I’m Yours!

You gotta let go stop holding on so tight gripping on to the comfort of a familiar pain, you love the way it hurts, the tears, you sit in it daily, blowing out the light on your life, the joy in you spirit. sitting in the darkness of the past…. oh how easy we forget the darkness of the past crying over the good times like the bad ones didn’t drive us to cry the same tears like these new tears of missing the good memories erase the reality, the truth of what it was, that made you say there’s … Continue reading You gotta let go

As graduation was getting closer I was getting nervous I had applied to one grad school and hadn’t found a job or place to live yet. I knew I would get results soon if I made the effort and let God do the rest. Things slowly began to and still have been falling into place. A women from my church who I worked with a few time in the children’s minitry was looking for someone to rent her room in a house because she was accepted into the peace corps. I immediately emailed her (not knowing how I would pay … Continue reading Have patience while you’re FAITHFULLY waiting for God to move?

You may have heard the phrase God is love. But those three words can be easily overlooked and rarely time is taken to examine them. This is not just a phrase or a saying but scripture as well. I’m only 21 but for the majority of my life I have been in serious and long relationships. I’ve always had this need to have someone to love and to be loved in return. At this time in my life I have been single and for SO long God has been trying to have me to Himself to truly show me who … Continue reading His Love is Enough

“The relationships that last a lifetime are the relationships that are ordained by God” (Marlon aka The Artist says this as the intro for the song “Something’s Missing” from God’s Image (www.gods-image.com) (Check out the song here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nu1q9HEHIA8) This statement always stood out to me. It made me think about a recent conversation with one of my friends and she said “I told him we are missing God in our relationship” I remember having that conversation before and it’s so important. How can you be so “in love” but not involve the one person who is love (1 John 4:8) in … Continue reading In some relationships “Something’s Missing” (song by G.I.)

So Jacob was in love with Rachel and wanted her for his wife. So in order for this to happen he said he would work for 7 years in return for her (Gen. 29: 18). What if now a days a man had to work in order to get a women’s hand in marriage I wonder how many men would be like oh no thanks I’m good. For me it just showed not only how much he was willing to do to have her but also his patience in waiting for what he desired. This is one of my favorite … Continue reading Where are all the Jacobs?

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